Even when: The Things Only Women Understand
Even when I was young, my soul was battered.
Even then, I knew I had seen too much.
Even when I was beautiful, I felt unusually average.
Even then I knew I should be more.
Even when I was thin, I thought my legs were fat.
Even then I didn’t try hard enough.
Even when I was pretty, I felt I needed makeup.
Even then I bought into the hype.
Even when I was confined, I felt unfettered.
Even then I knew the prison was in my mind.
Even when I was scared, I felt powerful.
Even then I knew I would prevail.
Even when I thought there was no glass ceiling, I hit my head on it.
Even then I knew if I tried to break it, I would get cut.
Even when I was optimistic, I knew there was tyranny.
Even then, I had to have my own back.
Even when I thought I could have it all, I knew there would obstacles.
Even then I planned an alternate route.
Even when I was alone, I felt surrounded.
Even then, I knew I would never be free.
Even when I had trust, I knew it was fleeting.
Even then I knew they were liars all.
Even when I believed in something greater, I knew it would fail me.
Even then, I had already been let down.
Even when I traveled the world, I sought shelter.
Even then I knew I wasn’t safe.
Even when I believed in love, I knew I could never have it.
Even then, I knew I wasn’t ______ enough.
Even when I loved with lionhearted worship, I felt the shadow of an impending rebuff.
Even then. Even with you.
Even when I seemed strong, my insides were splintered.
Even then, I had already tried to glue myself back together.
Even when it was wrong, it felt right.
Even then.
You felt right.